what a little moonlight can do
It’s always amazing how a fear of something going wrong that has a low probability of happening in the first place can blow-up and be all-consuming and terrifying all at once. Taking the first step can be the hardest part of anything. But I’ve done just that, and feel accomplished. I am well aware the battle isn’t over, but surely I am well on my way.
Yes, I know this seems oddly bipolar considering my exploits of a couple days prior, but I feel that then I was hitting the bottom. Over the past several months I have fallen, in stages, back into territory I have felt before. Yet it never fell to a point where I actually had to do or say something whacked out in order to go towards resolving it. Without going into extravagant personal detail, I think that point has been reached. Now it’s just the upward climb I have to care about. I haven’t felt this good in a long time. I hope it’s here to stay and only gets better from here.
And thus is my argument for preventative health care. Or something. I’m going to need new material to write about now, so don’t be surprised if this becomes a movies and fashion blog. I promise I’ll try and keep it somewhat interesting. I owe that much to any and all of you that come back.
Woah, I’m glad you had such a radical turnaround.
I like fashion. Also Music.
I think you should write poetry though. I want to read more about people drowning in 6/8 time. Well not necessarily drowning. But perception, in relation to feelings. Its hard to share feelings because too many people don’t seem to use or acknowledge them. Knowing how you feel is step one for good art. Its cool that you do. Making connections and making things are step two. But there are no instructions. So I’m probably lying.
Just to remember everything in beautiful words.
Eva
18 February 2010 at 12:15 am
Thanks, I’ll try and write more about different things to create a little variety.
I did write poetry a few years ago but I stopped as it just felt a little too amateurish to me, but maybe I set the bar too high for myself anyway.
I agree about the lack of people using/acknowledging their feelings. I’ve always felt things deeply so emotions have always kind of just been present for me, even in times where I’d wish they would just go away.
Thanks for your comment, it really has me thinking/inspired now.
will
18 February 2010 at 12:25 am